My night of graduation was probably a big jumble of emotions and feelings I was having all through the day almost ending depressed by news of something I wish I didn't actually hear sense I already knew... And to know others felt the same crushed me. But! That same night a confession was bestowed upon me. A close friend of mine I've had for almost 3 years told me something I never expected to hear... Its something I've would've never thought she ever tell me but she did...it's crazy because I've always wanted this but now I'm stuck at a point if I should pursue or restrain myself from the subject. I'm honestly just in shock of the whole situation...this is something I never thought be reality and to hear that it's true makes me riled with such great emotions I can do nothing but smile! I'm honestly in a positive mindset now more so than ever! This friend gave me something I've never expected ever in the world to happen to me but it did and I can do nothing but smile... Now should I take on this endeavor or should I stray away and keep it simple to how it was before... I'm not sure i feel time and a few days of interaction should settle this choice... But all I know is this is most definitely a situation only I've encountered in a dream that some how came true... Idk what to call it but hey I feel if you live positive positive things will happen and that's what I intend to continue to do! (^.^)
Friday, June 6, 2014
What's next after graduation... Now that's the question on my mind, now that the day has finally come. Looking back on my High School career I've learned that I didn't do much. A lot of it was honestly stupid immature mistakes I should've never even thought of committing. I got lost in so many things I wound up losing myself... But! I then discovered myself as soon as I walked into my senior year. I was put in an amazing class with a teacher who asked me what I wanted to do with myself an art teacher who always believed in me and gained new friends and reconnected with old ones. This year was a life changing experience I feel I grew so much this year I can touch the sky! Graduation is a bitter sweet moment but at least I got to see all my friends graduate with me and spend time with people who truly are my friends and make me happy. I look at graduation as a start to my Journey... Everyone has a journey and I feel mine is just beginning... At this moment in time I feel its time to stop the talking and start working!... So as from now on... The future is my canvas and all I'm going to do is paint it!
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
This story starts with a man moving after losing the love of his life. He decided to move to a rural town and focus on his painting and try to forget about his lost love. His plans did not go so well as he planned a few days after his arrival into his new town. He cones across a girl who he falls in love with. Days go by and they both started dating and so on. The girl had a fiancé but she still would go out with him to take walks and things like that. she made him think that he had a chance with her but in the end she went on and got married anyway. For him that was just too much and he committed suicide. This book was in some part confusing because the book was all created with letters that were wrote to a friend.
The point of the book was in a way confusing because there was always too much going on with the story but I think that the author wanted to let the reader know that no matter how much you may love someone you can't force them to feel the same. And the more you run from your fears the more they come back to haunt you.
The main character in this book is Sam a 17 year old that lost his dad in the Vietnam War and because her mom got re-married she felt her alone. Her mother move away but she let her keep the house and her uncle Emmitt moved in with her. She had a pretty good life until one day she decided to go to the veteran memorial. Sam wanted to find out who she was. She felt like she had no identity so she wanted to find out more stuff about the Vietnam War and her father. During summer she decided to go to the Vietnam memorial, during the trip she noticed a lot of things about herself and the world. She started to mature and become a young adult. Once they arrived at the memorial she was surprised at how huge the wall was. For her this was it, the memorial meant everything to her. When she started looking for her dad's names a man helped her find it and she finally understood everything and felt that she can continue with her life.
The theme that goes through out the book is on how Sam tries to find herself and how the Vietnam War affected her life. I think the author wrote this book to bring comfort to those people that were affected by the war and how its hard to deal with the loss of a loved one you feel shouldn't have left yet.
Montana 1948 is a story told by the memories of David. When he is telling the story he goes back to the moment and tells the story as if it were happening. The story takes place in Mercer County, Montana. Where he lives with his Dad Wesley and his mother. Frank is the sheriff of the small town where they live and his mother Gail, which works at the court house across from there house. The story starts when David remembers his childhood and how the house keeper one day got really sick and died. She first got really sick and because she was an Indian she would not allow them to take her to the hospital. David always cared for her on her last days til she passed. Since the day that she died everything change, soon after Wesley's brother got accused of a crime and because he was the sheriff he had to decide how he was going to punish his own brother. For Wesley this decision was really hard because he had to arrest his own brother, he decided to go and tell his parents first so they would not be alarmed when he was to arrest his brother, because his brother was the favorite of the family. Gail wanted Wesley to arrest his brother and give him the punishment that he deserved but, Wesley didn’t want to because that was his brother… Wesley's mother couldn’t look at the situation the same and she died. Wesley decided to arrest his brother and after that he could not take it the same way and decided to resign. Everything change in the family, Wesley never spoke to his dad again and Gail never loved Wesley the same. At the end Wesley then suffers from a heart attack.
I believe the author wanted to show how people that protect us like Sheriff Wesley make tough decisions that they have to live with for the rest of their lives. In the case of Wesley he had to arrest his own brother, because he did his duty as an officer and sacrificed his reputation with his wife and family for justice. From this book I learned that no matter what justices needs to be served and it’s better to lose everything you have, but at least know that you did what you needed to do.
Sunday, June 1, 2014
From walking into this class I knew from the get go it was going to be interesting, especially after seeing the Graffiti on the wall. This class has helped me grow not just academically, but grown up a lot more in life. This class has helped me understand what it is I need to do to to progress in my future and how to take on life's endeavors. My thinking and writing skills have changed immensely in so many ways from thinking about what I wanted to do after the school day to now thinking what I need to do after high school its self. This class has thrown reality into my face giving me something we all as students lack, which is the truth.
In this class I was given the respect of a colleague rather than a student, which in my opinion felt more accepting than an average student. I felt more willing to open up and express more of myself, because our instructor Dr. Preston looked at us all individually equal. He let us speak when we felt we should and gave feed back when asked or needed. I took this as opportunities to get information and even opinions on subjects I wanted to do in life. Every time I spoke to Dr. Preston about my art it seemed he always had something to comment or put out that caught my attention from a professional stand point. I felt more willing to have a conversation with him about my art more than a regular teacher just because of the fact that he looked at me as someone more than just a student, which made me feel more welcomed in his class.
Connecting with a passion was easy do to the fact that I was always already connected to my art and music but something happened this school year that dramatically shifted my whole thinking of what my passions were. Although I've had a love for both art and music and always believing music was my true passion. I came across something I always knew I was good at but never took professionally I serious. That was my art, my art honestly as I have discovered is my true passion. I love music but that's just fun to do as a hobby as a profession how ever I see so many outlets in art. Some coming from clothing brand designs to graffiti murals on the streets. I reconnected with old ideas and found out the reasons behind my art and what art truelt means to me which is deeper than most could understand. If you know me, you know my art is never complete, I always draw and always will. My art skills will continue to progress as I take the steps to better myself and get ready for the art industry. How will I do so you ask?... Well just by drawing and creating art pieces to expose to the world, can't display art if you got nothing to show.
Something about this course that honestly made me laugh out loud was the straight up honesty of our instructor Dr. Preston. I don't mean this in a bad way that he was rude or brutally honest, he just always answered with the truth or a wise word to get you thinking more. He always seemed to have an extra seed of creativity if you needed it. He always told us what we should and need to know not just what we're suppose too. I learned a lot from Dr. Preston, even in ways if confidence and how to deal with and carry myself. I've noticed the maturity level of myself increase from being in his class and I'm honestly just happy to say I met a teacher who knows what's up.
Two individuals that stood out in their presentations to me were Jorge Garcia and Andrew Alcazar. Jorge displaying his passion for break dancing while Andrew talks about his love for music and poetry. Both of these guys explain there passions in detail and as they carry on I can do nothing but smile and just think in my head how much we can relate. For one being with Jorge he was a break dancer and he explains how once you stop its hard to get back in it and I should know after being a dedicated breaker all through junior high til I met a girl before my freshman year. And Andrew as he explains his passions of music and poetry which I love both subjects completely! Music of coarse being a big love of mine and poetry also being another hidden hobby of mine. I love listening to music and writing lyrics or poetry, because what ever you put down holds meaning to you in some form of way. It all is you in a sense. Three other students I must say have displayed a lot in there presentations are Jacob Caldwell with his Endocrinology, Veronica Cavasos with her entertainment industry dreams, and Daniel Alvarez with his cooking passion. All three of each one of these individuals displayed what I most definitely can see as passion. As I hear Jacob talk about his knowledge on fitness and muscle training I can do nothing but be amazed by how much hard work goes into just sculpting a body just like sculpting a piece of art out of stone. In Veronicas you can see it that the entertainment industry has always been a big thing in her mind and she displays it well with her quick cover song game showing how there's a lot of discrimination in the entertainment industry do to truth behind publicity. And also Daniel with his presentation on cooking. He brings to clan some food he whipped up just for the class to enjoy as he explains his passion for cooking. As I hear him carry on all I think of is me and how I feel after I produce my art he talks about how so much hard work goes into making something that is only other for a short amount of time it makes me think of my art like graffiti how an artist cab take up all this time to produce a dope piece to have it getting cleaned up or painted over a few days after being produced. Its a bitter sweet moment knowing your creation is gone but the fact that you did something amazing that at least a hand full of people enjoyed then that's what makes it all worth it.
As for me, I'm far from being known as a hero but stepping out my boundaries and doing some things different with my art I have done. I've spoken to people about needed an artist for higher for events and such and have put it out there and are already getting hit up to commission art pieces and murals for people like my friends dad who wants me to paint a 49ers mural in his house or the Moose Lodge wanting me to paint stuff for them when they have special events. I've also done major step ups in the clothing brans aspect taking matters finally into my own hands. Me and a cousin of mine have tried developing a clothing brand but he continues to push off the project while I sit here with fresh drawings ready to be made into clothing designs. I finally got fed up and found someone interested in my designs and my ideas on a brand and that's Xavier Navarro. It's funny because just last year in our music history class me and Xavier joked about collaborating on a clothing brand when we presented as two heads if a clothing brand known as "Underground Kings" I couldn't do anything but feel nothing but complete excitement over what was happening before my eyes with our clothing brand ideas. At this point I just want to quit talking about it and start doing it!